How do I?

Let me just preface this post with the statement that this is not meant to come off as complaining. It might come across that way, but it's mostly just thoughts and questions I've come across in my excessive amount of time to think. I am extremely grateful of my situation and everything I've been blessed with.

How do I...?

-stay patient with my energetic 2 year old when she gets upset that Mommy can't come play the things she wants to play?
-ask my tired husband to tidy up the house without feeling like I'm nagging?
-actually tell someone what I really need done when they ask if they can do anything to help?
-not feel awkward about asking for more help?
-not feel awkward about asking people that aren't family for help?
-not feel like a burden and an incovenience to everyone around me?
-not become irritable because I can't actually do anything while the housework continues to pile up?
-not get frustrated with my dear husband because he's not doing any housework?
-continue to graciously accept all the help that's being offered when I feel so guilty about not being able to do it myself?
-stay sane when everything is driving me crazy? :)

I don't know. I just don't know. But I am praying and studying as much as I can and trying. I'm not perfect and I can only hope that what I can do is good enough.

This week's Dr Visit

Well it's official. I'm on bedrest for the rest of my pregnancy. 7 more weeks. That's right 7. Thankfully it's not strict bedrest and I can occasionally get up to walk around and shower, etc. My fluid levels were lots better this week. In the normal range this time. Labs came back normal also so I don't have preeclampsia. The only thing is that my BP is slightly elevated. Staying down should help that. Oh and I'm facing the fact that I'm just having one big baby. Dr said that my due date should be accurate and I'm just growing a healthy big boy. LOL Yeah at this rate he'll be over 10lbs!!

Thankfully I have wonderful visiting teachers that have been bringing meals in; An awesome Mom whose been fixing meals for us, cleaning at my house, and taking Myelle some so I can rest a little better; and lastly I have the most fantastic husband in the world who is so concerned about me, the baby, and our family. He's working so hard to make sure things will be okay and we'll be taken care of.

While I'm down I'm taking in a lot of movies, books, and internet time. LOL I'm also trying to really study my scriptures and pray more. I'm afraid with this much down time I'm going to start really stressing about how we're going to pay for things and what we'll do about insurance. I've been trying a lot harder to not worry and just trust that the Lord will take care of what we can't. I'm budgeting and tracking like crazy doing our part to be good stewards of our finances and I'm trusting the Lord will make things work.

Best of all is that Myelle gets to be home with me (even though I'm down mostly) or at Grandma's and not at a babysitter. I can't tell you how much that makes my heart happy. And how much we're going to try for me to be home a whole lot more after this baby's born.

Pics from Wesley's Adoption Day

Random Pics

Since I'm on bedrest I thought I'd go through and share some random pics. Enjoy!

Myelle loves fries and fry sauce from Homestead. In fact I do too. I just don't have it all over my face. LOL

Doesn't matter what time of year it is, Myelle loves her pumpkin headband Grandma Wood sent her.

Christmas morning I asked Dad to take some pics. LOL This was apparently a really important one. :D Love ya Dad!

On Bedrest

For the weekend at least. Sure is boring. Tomorrow I have another appointment to see if I have to stay there or if I'll get to resume normal activity. I'm hoping for the latter, but not holding my breath.

Poor Myelle is having a hard time understanding why I won't "wake up" (get out of bed). She's being a trooper though. Hopefully she'll have her little brother soon.

Pregnancy update for Real

Okay now I have a few minutes to do a real update. Let's start with an updated belly pic. YAY! You know you guys are lucky because I hate pics of myself especially looking like this. Thus the reason we have like no pics of me while I was pregnant with Myelle. Thanks for motivating me.

Sooo....my BP is still slightly elevated even with the adjustment in my meds and I have constant headaches it seems like. The doctor told me they are now going to monitor me every week. "Okay no problem." ....Starting today. We'll be doing a NST (non-stress test) and an ultrasound every week. "Great...have you ever tried to do a non-stress test while trying to make a 2 year old behave for that whole time?" After a very stressful non-stress test we go into ultrasound and find out I have excessive amniotic fluid. The baby is practically swimming in it. Sigh. Okay so that's why I've been feeling more uncomfortable and that's why I got big so fast. (didn't know this until Mom looked it up on the internet for me. Thanks Mom!) K, and he's growing great. He's just over 5lbs. Now I thought man that boy grew fast (at my other ultrasound he was measuring a little big, but they didn't change my due date or anything and he was weighing over 2lbs then.) it wasn't until later when Mom was looking at the growth charts for me (my internet was down that night) that I realized that either I'm a lot further along than we think or I'm going to have one big baby. Alright call us if anything seems wrong and we'll see you next week. We'll be keeping a close eye on you. Okay thank you. Next time I'll be prepared and won't have a 2 year old with me and I'll have a list a mile long of questions. :D LOL

Boy what a lot to do and find out in 2 hours and my doctor wasn't very specific as to what it all meant. I know I've been through this before, but I'm not a doctor I don't know everything. :) So from what I've found and what Mom's found on the internet I'm definitely preparing for another Csection. A VBAC is still possible, but I'm thinking not likely. Thank you again for all your kind comforting words. I only cried a little bit when I talked to Mom about it. I think I'll be ready and able to handle it better this time around. LOL like that's easy with pregnancy hormones raging through your body.

I'm also thinking that this baby is a lot further along than we thought and I'm going to be having him sometime mid March. Not for sure, but that's one of the questions I'll definitely be asking the doctor on my next visit.

Soo....stay tuned for weekly updates now. :D

Pregnancy Update Coming

Thanks everyone for your comments and advice. I try hard to accept what the Lord sends my way, but I struggle a bit sometimes. A pregnancy upday is coming I'm just too tired to do it tonight. Had a Dr. appointment yesterday and boy is it a doozy. :)

Have a great Thursday night!

This is What Happens....

When Daddy puts Myelle to bed..or should we say when Myelle puts Daddy to bed. LOL

Thus no updated belly pics today. How about tomorrow after my appointment. :D

I didn't fall off the face of the earth

Things have just been a little crazy around here. Finally we are settled into our new apartment...again. We're upstairs this time so no flooding. :D Both Erick and I are still working FT and trying to keep up. If anyone knows the cleaning fairy please give her my address and send her this way. :D

Myelle's doing great. We finally weaned Myelle from her pacifier this weekend. Hey she's only 2 1/2. Tonight's been the best she's gone to sleep. I'm amazed and don't know why I'm still up because I should be sleeping since she is. We're also starting to potty train. She does really good if I remind her, but not so good on her own. Hopefully she'll be out of diapers by the time the baby comes though.

So back in December I had a request for some belly pics. Here it is finally. This is at 25 weeks. I'll have Erick take another one tomorrow (32 weeks) and I'll post it ASAP.

I sure am feeling rather large and it's hard to sleep, but here's crossing my fingers that everything will continue to go okay. I have a Dr. appointment on Wednesday. Last appointment my BP had spiked and they adjusted my meds. It seems to be working. We visited Mountain View hospital the other day and just loved it!! So I'll be delivering there instead of at EIRMC. We're also going to try for a VBAC. Although I'm getting a little nervous about it. Silly really mostly I don't want to get my hopes up and then have a Csection because I struggled so bad emotionally with that with Myelle. I know that a few of you were aiming for a VBAC and ended up with a Csection. Any words of comfort or advice would be much appreciated.

We had a great Valentine's day! Erick is super sweet and got me tulips and cooked me dinner. I absolutely love him.

I promise I won't wait so long to post next time. :D